So I have been MIA for a bit, and I want to take this time to apologize to everyone who has missed me. Things got a little rough here in my little corner of the world, and I had to take some time to reevaluate some things and regroup, but fear not for we are back.
Being a working mom, college student and special needs momma can take a lot out of someone, and the last few weeks the stress that I have been under from multiple sources finally caught up with me, and I got sick, I mean really sick. Let me tell you, it really made me put a few things into perspective, and I think that I finally see that there is more out there than what I have been letting myself and my little family experience.
I was away from most technology for over a week, during that time I realized that there is so much that I haven't been letting us live a memorable life in real life if I am always living through an online persona, and that the life here in the digital world isn't always as real as we think. Stepping back from it all I got to see that I was missing some quality time with my son and fiancé, which was not my intention at all. I have now realized that perhaps I have put too much on my proverbial plate, if you will, and maybe something really does have to give.
From here on out, I am going to be posting once a week on my blog, more than likely it will be on the weekends after Johnny has went to bed, but will be more active on my Pinterest account(https://www.pinterest.com/meganjdell) and my Twitter account (https://twitter.com/AutismMom44903) which allow me to quickly share or post something with everyone, without taking a large chunk of time out of my already hectic schedule. I would love to see those of you who are reading this to follow me on those sites as well.
Look forward to seeing you all on my other pages! Have a great night and an even better week!
Sunday, September 18, 2016
Sunday, September 4, 2016
When Reality Hits You
As some of you may know, I work at the front desk of a local hotel. I love my job and more importantly I love my guests. Well this morning during morning check out, one of my housekeepers came to me with pictures of one of her rooms that was just completely trashed. Upon first looking at the pictures I was upset that someone would leave a room like this, especially when they have an AARP rate. Thinking to myself, I just can't believe that someone that age would even think to do this. As the head housekeeper asked me about who stayed in that room, as she was pulling trash bags with pull-ups out of her trash cart, I checked...and then I was instantly mad at myself.
While I didn't actually see the people who stayed in that room, and the name didn't ring any bells for me, her email address that was listed on her reservation struck me like a knife. The first part of her email was autism....I told the head housekeeper as well as the housekeeper who was cleaning the room, that I know that it isn't an excuse, but someone who had autism clearly stayed in that room, and that chances are they were left unattended for even the slightest bit of time. Like I said I knew almost instantly after searching a bit that I was looking at what autism can do when someone who has it is in a new environment.
My heart is breaking for the poor child/person who stayed with us last night, and I am truly sorry that I was judgmental at first of the person who rented the room. Reality has hit me hard today, and I am truly thankful and blessed for all those in our lives that help make Johnny who he is.
While I didn't actually see the people who stayed in that room, and the name didn't ring any bells for me, her email address that was listed on her reservation struck me like a knife. The first part of her email was autism....I told the head housekeeper as well as the housekeeper who was cleaning the room, that I know that it isn't an excuse, but someone who had autism clearly stayed in that room, and that chances are they were left unattended for even the slightest bit of time. Like I said I knew almost instantly after searching a bit that I was looking at what autism can do when someone who has it is in a new environment.
My heart is breaking for the poor child/person who stayed with us last night, and I am truly sorry that I was judgmental at first of the person who rented the room. Reality has hit me hard today, and I am truly thankful and blessed for all those in our lives that help make Johnny who he is.
Thursday, September 1, 2016
Somedays You Just Have To Pick Your Battles...
Today is one of those days where you literally just have to pick your battles. Today was picture day at school, don't know what they look like, but heard from the teacher that Johnny looks like the most "down in the dumps" kid out of the group, so they took several in the hopes that one is decent. Heard that he had a meltdown at lunch because he didn't want to eat what the cafeteria was serving, and decided that only eating the chips and just a few baked beans constituted as eating lunch today. I am constantly reminding myself today that I really have to pick my battles, what is worth fighting over, and what can I just let go and remember that tomorrow is another day.
Thankfully tomorrow is another day, that happens to be my birthday. I am turning 35 tomorrow, and Johnny is going to spend the night with his Aunt Jo. He has a blast when he spends the night with her and Uncle Mike, hopefully tomorrow is no exception to that. We got brave about a year or so ago and let Johnny start staying the night with them, which was quite hard on all of us, but figured that it needed to be done. He has always been a terrible sleeper, and is actually on medication to help him sleep, but we found for the longest time that he wouldn't sleep anywhere but home. One trip over to his aunt and uncle's he lost his fight with his meds and fell asleep there. So his aunt told us to just let him sleep, so we did. That night was the worst sleep that his dad and I had ever gotten. It has gotten some better, for all of us, to where we get more sleep, and don't wake up to check on Johnny, who isn't here. It was such a huge step for all of us, and we don't let him sleep over often, but every once in a while it is certainly a nice thing for all of us.
So while I am typing this, and he should be in bed sleeping, I hear him chattering in his room about his "surprise" tomorrow, as we haven't told him, I guess this is the battle that I am going to pick and try to get him to settle down and go to sleep. Lord knows 7:30 AM comes awfully early...especially on a super busy day.
Thankfully tomorrow is another day, that happens to be my birthday. I am turning 35 tomorrow, and Johnny is going to spend the night with his Aunt Jo. He has a blast when he spends the night with her and Uncle Mike, hopefully tomorrow is no exception to that. We got brave about a year or so ago and let Johnny start staying the night with them, which was quite hard on all of us, but figured that it needed to be done. He has always been a terrible sleeper, and is actually on medication to help him sleep, but we found for the longest time that he wouldn't sleep anywhere but home. One trip over to his aunt and uncle's he lost his fight with his meds and fell asleep there. So his aunt told us to just let him sleep, so we did. That night was the worst sleep that his dad and I had ever gotten. It has gotten some better, for all of us, to where we get more sleep, and don't wake up to check on Johnny, who isn't here. It was such a huge step for all of us, and we don't let him sleep over often, but every once in a while it is certainly a nice thing for all of us.
So while I am typing this, and he should be in bed sleeping, I hear him chattering in his room about his "surprise" tomorrow, as we haven't told him, I guess this is the battle that I am going to pick and try to get him to settle down and go to sleep. Lord knows 7:30 AM comes awfully early...especially on a super busy day.
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